Here I am in Boston to attend the College of Law Practice Management‘s Futures Conference; set to be inducted as a Fellow this evening. Being welcomed as a Fellow in this organization is a reflection of my career, my contributions to the legal industry, and an incredible honor. I look around the room, and read about my fellow Fellows, and I am humbled. I also wonder: “Do they know who they just confirmed?”
Is My Impostor Syndrome Showing?
It’s not a secret that I am a recovering alcoholic. I’ve been sober for more than 30 years (ugh … that’s a long time).
I’m also married to my high school sweetheart.
I have two great kids.
We take great vacations and have stuff.
From the outside looking in, for all intents and purposes, I have a sweet life. And I do.
And yet, I still compare my insides to your outsides and struggle with insecurities.
I have friends on Facebook who live lives I wish I lived:
- They are stay-at-home moms who have had the privilege of raising their children (I had a nanny)
- They have beautiful homes (I am stuck in my condo, FOREVER, because I am priced out of both upgrading and down-sizing in the crazy LA market)
- They are celebrating 25+ years of marriage (let’s just say I have trust issues that have impacted my relationships through the years)
- They take the most exotic vacations (we go where the time-share will take us)
- They have impressive college and post-baccalaureate credentials (If I knew how great my college was I’d never have applied …. and with that GPA, there was no way I was getting into a Tier-1 law school)
- Their careers seem to be spectacular (legal marketing … how’d that happen??)